You calm my raging sea

Since young,

people have always give me the impression that God is present only in big moment.

Big things. 

Maybe in life-threatening situation. 

In one of those 'rare' moment.

Or in 'magic' moment that happens rarely.

But growing up and facing the world(maybe not the whole world),

i learned that it's not totally true.

and somehow, someway,

God tells me that He was there all these time,

in every step that i made,

every breathe that i take,

even on an ordinary days,

He was there.

and He is still here with me. 

Even when i'm typing this.

I believe that God is present in little things.

He was in the little things, the little blessings that we often overlook.

Its normal, we are only homo sapiens after all.

And Human only know how to appreciate when thing are gone.

Because we thought it will always be there, and thus we convince ourself that the little blessing that we have will be there tomorrow, there is no need to rush and to appreciate it now.

'Because we will always have tomorrow.'

Thats what we always thought.

But tomorrow is just another uncertainty, an uncertainty that can be taken from us anytime. 

Sooner or later. Just a matter of time.

And the little blessing that we thought we will always have, will be gone before tomorrow come.

If there is anything that i learned in my 3 years of my university life. This is it.

I learn to appreciate the little things, the little gift, or the little angels that i used to overlook.

And i saw God in it.

Thank God for that. =)

I used to lost the so called 'little things' which come in the form of a person.

But well, God's plan is wonderful.

Little by little, time after time, i learn to understand the plan.

And i saw the wonderful plan that God have is way better than the plan that i have planned.

And recently, i have this struggle in myself, with my evil side.

I didn't like this evil feeling and i keep hiding it within myself, and comforting myself.

It was a question, a negative feeling that i have toward something.

I feel so small facing that situation, and sometime it hurts my pride.

I feel humble and a bit ashamed.
I feel so sad.
And angry.
And jealous.
And above all, confused.

I pray and pray to Father God to take this all away.
And well, God will make a way. Always.
And this time He did too.

I finally found the answer to my question.
And i feel better. A lot.
All this time, when im searching for answer, it will always appear in unexpected time and unexpected people.
Well, i guess God works in wondrous way. =)

I read through the 'soulfood' in my email, its actually the article by Bo Sanchez.

and somehow God answered my question. It was as simple as that.

Perhaps this is all i have, but i guess this is enough for me. 
And i certainly i know i'm truly blessed for what i have and what i've become today.
Sia akan berusaha! XD


The problem that you are facing is what makes me grow.
Problems stretch your wings.
It force your core gift to come out.
If there is no problem, if things come easily to you,
you will never survive when stormy season come,

Thank You Father God. 

For calming the raging sea inside me.

May Ur love and Joy overflow in my heart that i may share this with the people around me. Amen.

GBU.


P.s : I've been reading too much recently.