No. No, its not the reason why i didn’t updated my blog. Even if im as healthy as a horse pun i wont be updating juga. Because im just m.a.l.a.s. =) ehehe..Kalau malas cakap saja ba bilang. Ya, memang pun.
Every cell in my body is aching, and i can barely move. And ive been sleeping whole day.
Im having headache and as if something is in my head and its trying to get out. And i think i ‘masuk angin’ and my foot, my hand especially my wrist hurt, as if i sprained it or something.
And to get out of the bed just is a challenge for me. And i feel so useless, and i can hardly walk. And i thought to myself : hurm, so this is how i would feel when im 70 years old later. *itupun if im as panjang umur as that la,-_-*
And i wonder about what Pat said yesterday, she said i dont look well, and she think that im having a fever. But i thought i wasn’t feeling well because im too exhausted having class from morning till evening.
And i dont think that i would be sick because im not the kind of person that easily get sick, u see, im the type of person where sickness rarely came to me, but when it do came, its quite a serious sick type, as if the sickness is making up for the time when i dont get sick ni.
Or maybe im just too ego to admit that im not as strong as i thought. Hurm~
And when i woke up the next day, yes i am having a fever.
And when im sick, im sick like ive never fallen sick for years. And i would be laying on my bed for the whole days.
Well, they said laughter is the best medicine. But i don’t really feel like laughing. Duh. Maybe sleeping is the best medicine for me. Laughter- not so much.
And it was time like this that it make me think, having so many thoughts in my head.
And i thought to myself, im forgetting something here.
Im missing something here.
When you are sick and can barely get out of the bed, one thing u can do is to Pray. And ive been so paranoid about my fever that i forgot the most important thing – to Pray. Ive been blinded by this sickness that i forgot that this kind of sickness im having is not so much as to compared to others in this world.
Pray.
And keep praying, and believe that you’ve received it.
Well, thats pretty much the only thing i can do when every cell of my body is aching, huh?
And they said that praying is the highest privilege ever given to human.
And so i prayed, pray that if it is God’s will, i would be better.
There’s no one i can hope for but God. And i thought that recently ive been so busy and never did really find the time to talk and to pray to Him. Well, i do. But maybe not sincerely. Because when you have everything and everything is going so well for you, you tend to forgot.
Well. Im as human as u. And human makes mistake. Human forgot.
Human is just human.
The thing is, when u are sick, when u are feeling weak, when u are feeling incapable, thats the time where u would seek God. After all, we are only homo sapiens, and we tend to forgot, we tend to overlook it. And yes, i am one of the so called homo sapiens.
And i thought that maybe this is how God reminds us. This is how He call us to came back to Him.
And this evening, i feel much better and so i was able to type this out.
Dear Lord, in sickness and in health, i wish to love You always.
Maybe its time for me to came back to Him. Let Your will be done, Lord.
*picture taken at Malawa's church*
