My Awesome Planner

13 November 2011

Today i realized that :

1. No matter how FAR i go, I’ll never be far enough for God to reach me.
2. And when in time of need, and when i’m alone, God will send me comfort, which come in the form of wingless angels.
3. Not every angel has a wing. (And not everything that have wing is an angel.)

And today i’m awed by God’s grace. Again.

You know, i consider myself as a calm person. I don’t freak out easily.

Okay, maybe i do. A bit. I might appear calm on the outside, but inside i am freaking out.

Perhaps i don’t really freak out because i always have this faith that,

If God brings me to it,

God will bring me through it.

Here goes.

Just in case you did not know, here, the mass started in the evening, which is 5 pm.

And it’s the only mass here.

The first week i was here, i totally am not familiar with this place.

 i wonder how am i going to church, where is the church, who am i going with and etc.

And after i fail to figure out the answers to my question, i started to have doubt and i’m thinking of not going to church on Sunday.

Which depressed me. A lot. 

But then, knowing that i’m at my wit’s end, God send me a wingless angel.

Not every angel have wings, and not everything that have wings is an angel.

I found out that one of my housemate who apparently is also my office-mate is a Catolic.

*a.k.a Wingless angel number 1.

Actually she hasn’t been baptized, but she always go to this class where you have to attend this class before being baptized. I’ll spare you the detail.

So she goes to church too. 

And i am more than grateful to follow her every Sunday.

To be exact, for two weeks.

And i only found out that last week she will be transferred to another place.

T.T

Puff. There goes my wingless angel  1. 

Flying to another new place for people that are more in need. I guess.

And well, i’m gonna miss her. Though i just met her, i really like her.

May God bless her, no matter where she is now.  =)

And so, to be frank i am disappointed.

But still,

Thank you God, for this wingless angel, even for a very short time.

At least now i know the road to the church.

So i guess it’s up to me now. 

So today in the morning i wake up and determined to go to church. 

Alone.

I still haven’t figure out how to go to the church.

You see, in case you didn’t know, there’s no taxi here.

I’ve never missed taking taxi so much. Until i’m here. T.T

Here, there’s something similar to taxi, but only its kinda illegal. Not really illegal.

Hmm. They called it as ‘pirate car’ here. To be exact, ‘prebet’.

Ya kurita yang ada pirate di dalam. Tidak ba!!  Well, whatever.

The downside of this pirate car is that your safety is not guaranteed.

But the good side is that it’s cheap. Way cheaper.

And its not like i have a choice here, so here’s my brilliant plan:

How i’m going to the church Brilliant Plan part 1:

 Go to town with a pirate car, and walk to the church.

How in the world am i going back home Brilliant Plan part 2: 

Called this pirate car to the church to fetch me. (which i’m not sure if the driver would know the location of the church)

Another problem is that the church is kinda far from town. Not somewhere you can walk to.

Not much of a plan huh?

I thought so.

So going to the church is not a problem, going back home is.

Just in case the pirate car(which i have his contact number) did not answer his phone, 

or is not available,

here’s the brilliant backup plan:

Call my another housemate to fetch me home.

But well, this is the last thing i have in mind do coz i malas bah mo kasi susah orang.

Plus, it’s a company’s car.

I’d rather take the pirate car.

So i took the pirate car to the town, and i walk to the church not knowing exactly where it is.

I ask around, and tengtedeng......

i reached the Anglican church. 

I was like, em okay. Fine. Don’t give up. Macam sia mau ketawa pun ada.Tapi sia pura-pura tabah sejala.

I almost give up after walking for half and hour.

I passed by this small shop just at the side of the road, and i think the pakcik recognize for passing to and fro his shop for like twice, and he start asking me where in the world am i heading to.

I wonder is it that obvious that i’m lost? Maybe the look in my face gave it away. T.T

The pakcik was so kind and he offered to help me, he stop the passing car, which i guess is another pirate car. But he said i need to pay RM1 for the fare though.

You know, based on my another not-so-statistical observation:

 88% of the car here is a pirate car. 

So yeah, no worries. Hakuna matata.

But the car he stopped is the 12% not-pirate-car.

So the pakcik ask his friend, who were hanging out at his shop to send me.

A random guy.

I was like...Okay. It’s too late to apologize...ivy. 

Suprise  1, The friend i said is not local (i guess), he’s a Benggali. 

No offence, the guy is kinda good looking. Just that i’m not sure he know the place.

*Wingless angel no 2

Suprise 2, The guy ride a motorcycle. (Not much of a suprise, but i was expecting a car.)

Not like i have a choice.

So i just go with the plan. 

Oh. Did i mention that i did not have a helmet?

Here come Surprise number 3,

As if the pakcik can read minds, or maybe its obvious that i'm thinking about me not having a helmet.

The pakcik said to the Benggali guy :
No worries, there’s no police here. If there were, just said that i ask you to do so.

I manage to hold my laughter though. Laugh~

Note to myself : Maybe i should bring my own helmet next week.

So, i ride a motor to the church today. The Benggali guy was so nice, he refuse to take my money.

So i gratefully go to the mass. 

So part 1 is done. Fuh~

And as i wait for the mass to start, i sit at the outside of the church.

Reconsidering my Part 2 of How in the world am i going back home plan.

Whether i’m calling the pirate car, or call my housemate to fetch me. Or to walk back home.

Option 3 is kinda impossible. It’s very far. And dark.

And that’s when God’s Awesome plan comes to me.

I thought i have a better plan since i did have a backup plan.

 You know...

The calling-my-housemate-using-company-car-to-fetch-me plan.

But i was wrong.

God’s plan is always better. 

And i’ve forgotten that.

So..

God’s-Awesome-Plan comes in the form of another wingless angel.

*Here come the wingless angel no 3.

A wingless angel with a black shiny car. (seriously)

I know i’m making this a bit melodramatic.  T.T

And i saw this guy, who look so familiar.

He was my schoolmate. Which i haven’t seen since ages ago.

He was a friend back in my hometown.

I mean the kinda friend that you recognize the face but not the name or anything else.

The kinda friend that you never really talk to.

Okay, how is that suppose to sound like a friend?

 You know. That kind of friend. You know..

So we talk and begin the hey-i-know-you conversation.

And as i talk to him i don’t know why am i so sure that this is the God’s-Awesome-Plan that was prepared for me. (I did not ask for his favour to send me back home though.)

I don’t know what make me so sure.. I just know. 

My instinct is pretty accurate.

But still, i don’t want to put so much hope in it because i just met him, and this is the first time i actually talk to him.

So after the mass finish, i waited outside the church.

I’m thinking whether to call the pirate car and wonder if he knows the route to the church.

And to be brutal honest, there was this small hope that the schoolmate guy i met just now will offer to send me back.

Eeee lucu oh saya. Parasan ni mo kena antar balik rumah.

Because it’s obvious that he want to help me, i mean to send me back home, even though he did not said it.

But maybe he’s afraid i will rejected his help, seeing that we just met and rarely know each other.

Then i think he waited for me outside the church and i don’t want to seem like i’m depending on him so i don’t really look for him.

Punya minta puji oh kan. Haha. Ego oh ko ivy.. Hahaa tidak baaa, sa tia mau kasi susah orang baa~

But at last, he ask me the million dollar question:

How am i going back home?

That exact moment, my How in the world am i going back home Brilliant Plan part 2 is instantly replaced by God’s Awesome Plan.

So to end my story, i followed him back home. And if you can see me that moment, i'm glowing with happiness and joy. Mihihihi. 

*Erm..kenapa sia yakin btul ni ikut strangers balik rumah..Herm..tiataula.. sia mmang yakin selama sia hidup~

He offered to send me back home and that’s pretty much the sums of my day.

I was so touched and in awed with God’s Awesome Plan.

Thank you Father God. I’m always in awed by Your plan!Though i find it all kinda funny.

And today i learned that no matter how many backup brilliant plans i thought i have, God’s plan is always better. 

God’s grace is enough. Always do, and always will be.

May you too be blessed with God’s grace.

P.s: Even though i tell this in a funny way, i did feel afraid that i might come home safely. 
But i know, God will provide. And God is definitely my awesome planner. Thank God. =)

Beyond blessed,

aibeh

Cloudy day

It's been cloudy these few days.
The weather.
I love it.
It's not sunny and it's a Perfect weather for a journey to the Dreamland.

Kenapa ba kalau saya bercakap mesti ada maksud tersirat ni.
Hurm. Saya mememang suka tapuk makna sebenar hoping that someone will understand it. 
Stewwpid kan. Ya i know. Biarla sia seja yang paham~

And most of the time, only few people get  it.
When i say few, i mean 1 or 2. 

But about the cloudy thing... i really mean the weather. Not my day.
Well..
Even though i have a few discomfort these few days, i still have a pretty good day.

And oh, one of my blessings were temporarily take away from me.
To be exact, one of my just-met-wingless-angel.
(I really hope it's for temporary)
Just when i thought Father God had make a way for me.
Father God, bless her wherever she is.

But it's okay.
I guess now it's up to me now.

Up until now, i've been relying to other.
It's not wrong, but i can't rely on them forever.

But growing up i'm a pretty independent person. Too independent i guess.
I grow up doing things and going to a lot of places on my own.
I wonder where in the world i have so big of a courage.

I've been to a lot of places where i never been too, with not knowing anyone there.
Whenever i went to a new places for a particular period, i always go out alone on Sundays.
Because i wanted to go to church.

I'm beyond happy to say that i finally found the real reason of going to church.
Not merely because of obligation.
Not because for the sake of following my church friend.
Not because wanting to go jalan-jalan after the mass.
(No offence, i really love going to church with u guys, but i do appreciate the alone-me time)

Because i find that it was during those going-to-mass-alone time that i really know what i'm doing there.

For me, it's simple.

Because I really..really..really want to see Jesus.

You know how when you love someone, you wanted to see them as often as you can.
It's hard to describe with word.
So yeah, i am grateful, very grateful for the faith.
Thank you Father God. 

P.s: "Did you go to church because you don't want to go to hell?
Or because you want to go to heaven?"

May you too find you own reason,
aibeh

TGIF

Hi dear-whoever-is-reading,

first and foremost Thank You Father God that today i am still alive, still breathing and still kicking. 

May i, always be grateful and appreciate the little blessing in life, that by being a blessing myself to other, i too may share the blessing i received from You with other.

The short version of my blog today:

I broke my necklace chain.

I lost my cross. 

menangis di bolakang pintu~

And i feel sad.
Here's the cross that i've lost.
With Hope that i shall see it again.
*Ignore muka pura pura innocent sia.

There goes my short version of my blog.

But i feel like writing it longer.

Macam besa, skil merapu-rapu sia memang tidak boleh dinafikan lagi.

Baiklah, persilakan version panjang.

I felt sick.

No, not homesick.

Okay, maybe a little.

You know, no matter how old you are, you will still miss your home when you are away.

Ask me again in 30 years time. 

What i meant was that i’m more to physical sick.

Maybe because of the weather.

 Its very-super-damn- h.o.t here.

Once, i went out at 7.00 am and i was at the fish mart after like half and hour,

And i was drenched in sweat.

Oh man, talk about starting your day Fresh. T.T

Okay, not much to be blamed since this place is kinda surrounded with the beautiful ocean.

But the view here is.. talan air liur~

Oh My God.

Punya santik the water reflection from the ocean.

O.O~

It’s beyond word. I mean beyond my limited vocabulary..T.T

I once went to one of the resort and i saw the water reflection under the jambatan and i was in awed ni.

Should have took a picture but i stupidly did not charge my camera.

Again. T.T

Okay. Eh apa pla topic sia suda tuh? Apa-apa lah.

Baiklah. Selamat hari Lima kawan2. 

Sayang kamu semua. I rarely said this, so yeah i mean it. =)

TGIF! Have a blessed day ahead!GBU!

I love red ship, i love green ship and i also love yellow ship.
But most of all, i love our Friendship!

I miss my friend and i need a hug,

aibeh@ Det. Chonan

P.s I'm easily annoyed this few days. I'm sory. T.T 

Aunty P is coming i guess.