Not all the angels have wings, and not all that have wings is an angel.

*9^th Jan 2010

So, i started to blog. And im still new to this thing.

And Ive been trying here and there to upgrade my blog. In the meantime im exploring the layouts, and yes it take lots of Time and Patience to do this. ~_~

See? I dont even have time to update my blog, and now im changing the layout and whatsoever gadgets there are out there. Duh.

I though that this might be the time to share whatever things ive been through with my life, to share the little things in life that matters a lot, to share my perspective of viewing life from the other angle, or maybe just to make you laugh and make your days a little brighter.

Minna san,im good at procrastination, so u are not gonna see me updating my blog every single day.

I only blog when :

Im happy, and overjoy. Yay!

Im having an emotional breakdown. Duh.

Something unexpected happen~ *Just go with the flow~

When i suddenly feel grateful of the little things  *they said its the little thing that matter

When i have nothing to do (ya i know2, as if i didn’t have assignments to work on) *ya rite.

When i feel something good happen and i want to share it. Double yay!

                                                        ~random snap at Kundasang~

I’ve been browsing through my pictures, pictures with family, friends, bffs, dearest, and others. And i came to a conclusion that im blessed. Im so blessed. The people around me is so dear to me, and iom so thankful to dear God for sending me them. Thank you dear sweet Jesus.

Well, these people dont always says thing i want to hear, but they always say things that i need to hear. They are like angels to me, well of course without wings.

And for me you dont have to have wings to be an angel.

Not all the angels have wings, and not all that have wings is an angel.

 

As i look at those picture, i imagine that one day when im dead, there are gonna some kind of a flashback to my life. Like looking to a slide show showing pictures what deeds i did and what wrong i did in my life.

Im not being negative here, just trying to be grateful.

Well, i think that its not about how long you live, it’s about how u spent your life.

And so, its more than enough already even if u get to live for another 1 month but u live it meaningfully and happily with people u love so dearly.
Because even if u get to live another hundred years but u aren’t happy or satisfied, its useless.
In fact, its kinda tiring.

People come and go, but they remain forever in your heart.

And yes my friend, you will always be in my heart. If im gonna make a list of the people that has been so dear to me, im gonna end up making a book instead.  I know i’ve been such a pain in the ass sometimes, and yes we do argue with each other, but i still love u guys the same.

Thank you Lord, for this blessed life.

Here are some of the pics of angels God sent to me, and lotsa random pic.

~zai jia kao jia ren, zai wai kao jia ren~

~best-est BFF i could ever ask for~

 

  

 

~dearest KML roomates~

~kebun~

~dey call themself babengs =p~

Some of them come into my life, and for some reason couldn’t stay longer.

But still im glad that our path crossed.

~dearest wews~

 Meet as Strangers, leave as Friends.

~Goofing around~

Im so glad.

So glad you’ll never know.

 Thank God.

PS : stil lots of pic of angels not published yet, soon. =)

If i have time. =)

For He knows whats best

Minnasan. Sashiburi.
*Writing in Japanese reminds me that i still have a lot of shukudai to be done for my Japanese class. zan nen desune.

So.
Its CNY holidae, and it is also my mid semester holidae. And yes, also a Valentine day.
And so i was planning to spend my weekend(13,14th) at Kaingaran, Tambunan.
They were having a retreat there, which i so want to go actually.
But end up spending my weekend at my dad's kampung.
-_-

Hurm.
And i feel kinda guilty. To God.
Well, i malas to elaborate the details here. Or to eplain the obstacles i faced.
Enough la if i just say i feel guilty and sayang ni that i cannot go.
And no  need to explain much when i know its my own fault.
I Really Really wanna go.
In fact, i even see myself there, finding my way back to God.
And i even ask for the form weeks before.

But well, i made my choice.
And i gotta live with it.
I told myself that if i didnt go to this retreat because of personal reason or because of some minor obstacles,
*which i could have choose to go but i didnt.
I know i would never be able to forgive myself.

Because He said that to follow Him, u will have to let go of everything, to leave behind anything and everything. Even your family.

And i still feel sorry for myself.
And when i saw the pictures of my friend who did went to this retreat.
makes me even more regret and feel so..hurm..i dont know.

Well, the hardest person to forgive is not your friend, nor your enemy. But its yourself.
Well, im choosing another thing before Him. And my willpower just isnt strong enough. in
And although there were a lot of aral yang melintang pukang, i should have trust in You Lord.

But i didnt. Im sorry Lord.
I know God will forgive me, but well i still couldnt forgive myself.
Should let go of it soon.
And to be honest, im kinda jealous to those who did went to this retreat.

And i feel im drifting further and further away. Im holding on now. Holding on.
Many things that i need to let go. But never did i really let go.
And so the least i could do is to pray.

To let go is hard. But to hold on is harder.

Dono which one should i do. To let go or to hold on.
But well, i know i should let go.
Lord, may i have the Strength to let go of things that arent meant to be mine.
And help me to see that it is for my good. For our good.
Because You know what is best for us.

JLU.