One of Those Days

I know and understand that people come and go.

It's a part of life after all.

It's sad that one day, everyone you know will become a memory.

It feels like a tiny tiny part of me is being taken away.

I might not show much feelings on the outside, but i DO feel sad.

Even only on the inside.

Because i feel that showing it might make things harder for you..

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'Smile even when it's painful.'

I have this habit of hiding all the bitterness inside, and the more bitter it feels,

somehow the wider my smile is on the outside.

Wherever you are and whatever you are doing,

I hope and pray that it's nice where you are.

Knowing that you'll be happy and healthy...

is more than enough.

I'll keep you in my prayers.


God be with us,
aibeh

Keeping my Faith

Nobody said it was going to be easy.

I gotta learn what i got, and what i'm not, 
and who i am.

Is it okay to be not okay?
Because i am afraid that if for a second...for 1 second i show my weakness,
and admit that this is tough,
It might bring me down. Way down.

But in the meantime, i'll be fine.
I know i will.
I've come this far, and i'm keeping my faith.
Because i know that if God bring you to it,
God will bring you through it.
Amen.


Hakuna matata,
Ivy

Do The Right Thing Anyway

Wherever you are right now, remain faithful.
Always give your best.
You may not be in the right job,
you may not have the right tools,
you may not be in the right place,
you may not be with the right people
But do the right thing anyway
and God Himself will give you the right reward.—
-Bo Sanchez-

Lovely! definitely one of my To-Buy Things

May we are able do the right thing anyway,
aibeh

Please bear with me

Hey blog,
Not much time left for me to spend my days surfing the net reading random things.

So today, I stumble upon this when i was surfing the net.
And i wanted to share it.
Because sharing...is caring! C:

Its something from Bo Sanchez.


Because yesterday is Fathers day, so this would somehow be the most appropriate time to share things like this.

I made a leche flan for my dad to celebrate Fathers day,
well..the leche flan is kinda a success. The taste is alright but i gotta improve the outlook to make it more appetizing.

But since it was something that come from my heart,
I guess dad doesn't mind the outlook.


Can't blame me much since it was only the second time i made a leche flan.
I'll post the picture of my homemade leche flan the next time when i did a better version of it. C:


So..

To my hero, and to my first love, my dad Primus Chin Fook Seng,

Happy Fathers Day!

My ama om apa with me on Graduation day!

My parent with my CSGians friend who came to my house! Wee~

May Father God in heaven bless you with love, peace, joy and good health and all the blessing that you will need!



Anyways, here is what i want to share.

It's something simple, something so common that we forgot about it.

I hope you would spend your 5 minutes to read this,



Please bear with me.

Dear Child,

As I get older, please be patient with me.When I drop things or make a mess of my food, I hope you don’t shout at me or scold me.  Please bear with me.

When my eyesight dims and I stumble along my way, or when my hearing gets really bad and I can’t hear what you say, please bear with me.

When these embarrassing and difficult times come, if you could just hold my hand and tell me that you understand… I’m sorry child, I’m getting older.  Please bear with me.When my feet get crooked and my knees get weaker, when I fumble in my steps and I walk slower, I hope you remember the time when I taught you how to walk.  Please bear with me.

When I keep repeating my stories to you, sometimes 4 or 5 times a day, just smile and pretend I said it the first time.  Because to my failing memory, it’s really the first time I’m saying it to you.  Just remember how you repeated yourself as a child.  Remember how many times you asked, “Are we there yet?” every time we took a trip.  Or how many times you asked, “Mommy, can you buy me this toy?” whenever we were in a toystore?  Please bear with me.

When I don’t smell so nice, when I smell like an old person, please be patient with me.  When you smell something not too good from me, I hope you remember that when you were small, you used to sweat and smell too.  But I loved it because it was part of your growing up.  Well, my smells are part of my growing old.  Please bear with me.When I get cranky or get sensitive, or when I get sentimental and moody, or when I get pushy and demanding, all these are all part of getting old.  You’ll understand when you get older.  Please bear with me.

When you have time, I hope you visit me.  Talk with me for a few minutes.  I’m always all by myself and have no one to talk to.  I know you’re busy with work but your work will always be with you, even after I’m gone.  I won’t be here forever.  Please bear with me.Even if you’re not interested in my stories, please pretend you are. Do u remember when I used to listen to your stories about your toys, your imaginary friends, and the cartoons you watched?  Those things weren’t very interesting to me, but because they were important to you, they were important to me too.  I ask you to please bear with me.When the time comes when I get sick and bedridden, I hope you visit me.  I’m sorry if I accidentally wet the bed or make a mess.  I hope you stay with me during the last few moments of my life.  I’m not going to last much longer anyway.  Please bear with me.I pray for you everyday.  When I finally meet God, I will continue to mention your name to Him.

I love you.We love you.Please bear with me.

 Eternally,Mom and Dad 

Note to you, to anyone, and especially to myself:


Love thy parent. Spend time with them. Love them. Care for them. Show it by the little things that you do for them. Talk to them. Pray with them, and for them.


We are so busy growing up, we often forgot they are also growing old.


May you grow old with the people you love. Amen.

Keriangan dari Kota Keriangan

Last weekend, my church colleague, Catholic Student Group came to Tenom.
And they visited my house!

The fact is i really miss being a part of CSG. (Catholic Student Group)
Back in the university time, i spent a whole lot of time with them.
And those time are time where i really feel belong and literally changed my view in God.

To be honest, as a Christian,I never was a strong believer before,
but here in CSG my faith grows.
Thank God for CSG!
Its a long story. But definitely a good story though.

Anyway,
I was so happy that they came even for a while.
Weeee~
My parent are more than glad to welcome them too! ^^

They brought with them a joyful and loving heart to my house.
Thank you guys. I love CSG, and i love being a part of CSG.
Aways do, always will.

Since a picture says a thousand word, here goes a thousand word:

Quiet Before The Storm

Good am peeps!

The weather today is perfect to describe my feeling.

It's shady and the sun is nowhere to be seen.
It gives you this describable warm feeling.

Clouds are forming, and it's quiet.
It's almost like the Quiet Before The Storm.



If a storm is coming,
I hope the storm do bring the rainbows along.

It's coming

May you keep me strong when the storm come,
aibeh

HUMANS ARE LIKE BUTTERFLY

Good am peeps!

You know how different people are attracted to different things?

Yes, well..even our 5 fingers has different height, what more is our personal interest ba.

Some people love ‘this’, while some people love ‘that.

 But doesn’t mean that they can’t love each other right?  (yeah. sometime i’m confuse of my own words too)

After all, people can be different, but at the end of the day..

Love remain the same.. Love is still Love.

I vaguely remember since when exactly, but I’m very much attracted to nature like the ocean , and plants and any other creature that have to do with nature.

I’m mesmerized by them, especially by those little things in our everday life.

It feels like i really learn a lot from them. A lot.

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I found that Human are a lot like Butterfly.

(Well at least i thought so)

Let me relate it with a few stories..or examples.

THE BOY AND THE BUTTERFLY STRUGGLE (i came up with this title my own)

I bet you are familiar with the butterfly cocoon story, do you?

Where the butterfly was supposed to struggle to push its way  through the tiny oppening of its cocoon and pushes out its body and into its wings.

But instead, the boy help the butterfly by snipping the cocoon to create a bigger hole on the cocoon in order to let the butterfly emerge from it.

However, the butterfly end up with a shriveled wings and swollen body.

The boy’s good intentions hurt the butterfly. Because without the struggle, the butterfly would never fly. 

(We)Human too, in order to ‘fly’, need to struggle at some point in their life.

THE BEAUTIFUL WINGS OF THE BUTTERFLY(yeah, i came up with this on my own too)

I was browsing through the internet and i saw this wonderful quote :

Butterfly can’t see their wings. They can’t see how truly beautiful they are, but everyone else can. 

People are like that as well.

And i found this so very true.

Oh, then i start browsing and i found that butterfly  can’t hear, they are  nearsighted.

( Well, perhaps this explain why they can’t see their wings)

Instead, the can feel vibration and they have excellent sense of smell. They ‘taste’ with their feet.

Butterfly has amazingly beautiful wings, but they can’t see it.

Human have wings too. And human’s wings are something that can’t be seen litteraly.

I believe that human are angels in disguise.

You know, not all the angels have wings, and not all that have wings are angels.

Because devil have wings too. (yeah we can have either type of wings)

I guess that’s why you can’t see our human wings if you don’t look at it the right way.

Question that sprang to my mind :

  If even the litterally obvious beautiful wings can’t be seen, what more is the human’s invisible wings?

 And it doesn’t matter how beautiful your wing is if you can’t see it yourself. Right? Why bother having one anyway? Right again?

Well.. perhaps, the wings on your back is not the only wing you own, there’s another beautiful wings that lies on your heart. 

And here goes the answer that follow along after thinking for a while :

I guess sometime it’s okay even if you can’t see your own beautiful wings on your back.

As long as you know its there, as long as you realize that what makes you truly beautiful lies not only your back,

But most importantly, in you heart.

 Maybe we do see it, but sometime for some reason something along the way  come and block our view from seeing our beautiful wings.

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Sometime i wonder if the reason why we can’t see our wings all the time is because God wants us to see 

other people’s wings too.

To assure and remind them again that they too have beautiful wings.

That we are all beautiful. In our own way. (u just gotta figure out in what way)

And beauty is something to be shared. Not only the physical tangible beauty.

Because beauty take various forms such as the kindness of heart. Or a simple gesture by strangers. You name it.

Its only normal that we human have flaws. But its the flaws that define us. And it is also the flaw that make us want to be better. Isn’t it?

And the flaw of not seeing our own wings sometimes can turn out to be a good thing too.

Because if we can see our beautiful wings everyday, we get too fond of ourself, (after all we are only human)

Thus we become too proud to look at other but ourself. And that proud make you want to ‘fly’ alone.

Well what use is it no matter how beautiful your wings are if you are alone.

Perhaps, its a good thing that we don’t see our beautiful wing all the time. Right?

Because we are not the only beautiful creature that God has created. May God bless you with a beautiful heart everyday of your life, so that you can be a beautiful child of God.

Amen.

May you found your way to 'fly' to heaven,

aibeh