HUMANS ARE LIKE BUTTERFLY

Good am peeps!

You know how different people are attracted to different things?

Yes, well..even our 5 fingers has different height, what more is our personal interest ba.

Some people love ‘this’, while some people love ‘that.

 But doesn’t mean that they can’t love each other right?  (yeah. sometime i’m confuse of my own words too)

After all, people can be different, but at the end of the day..

Love remain the same.. Love is still Love.

I vaguely remember since when exactly, but I’m very much attracted to nature like the ocean , and plants and any other creature that have to do with nature.

I’m mesmerized by them, especially by those little things in our everday life.

It feels like i really learn a lot from them. A lot.

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I found that Human are a lot like Butterfly.

(Well at least i thought so)

Let me relate it with a few stories..or examples.

THE BOY AND THE BUTTERFLY STRUGGLE (i came up with this title my own)

I bet you are familiar with the butterfly cocoon story, do you?

Where the butterfly was supposed to struggle to push its way  through the tiny oppening of its cocoon and pushes out its body and into its wings.

But instead, the boy help the butterfly by snipping the cocoon to create a bigger hole on the cocoon in order to let the butterfly emerge from it.

However, the butterfly end up with a shriveled wings and swollen body.

The boy’s good intentions hurt the butterfly. Because without the struggle, the butterfly would never fly. 

(We)Human too, in order to ‘fly’, need to struggle at some point in their life.

THE BEAUTIFUL WINGS OF THE BUTTERFLY(yeah, i came up with this on my own too)

I was browsing through the internet and i saw this wonderful quote :

Butterfly can’t see their wings. They can’t see how truly beautiful they are, but everyone else can. 

People are like that as well.

And i found this so very true.

Oh, then i start browsing and i found that butterfly  can’t hear, they are  nearsighted.

( Well, perhaps this explain why they can’t see their wings)

Instead, the can feel vibration and they have excellent sense of smell. They ‘taste’ with their feet.

Butterfly has amazingly beautiful wings, but they can’t see it.

Human have wings too. And human’s wings are something that can’t be seen litteraly.

I believe that human are angels in disguise.

You know, not all the angels have wings, and not all that have wings are angels.

Because devil have wings too. (yeah we can have either type of wings)

I guess that’s why you can’t see our human wings if you don’t look at it the right way.

Question that sprang to my mind :

  If even the litterally obvious beautiful wings can’t be seen, what more is the human’s invisible wings?

 And it doesn’t matter how beautiful your wing is if you can’t see it yourself. Right? Why bother having one anyway? Right again?

Well.. perhaps, the wings on your back is not the only wing you own, there’s another beautiful wings that lies on your heart. 

And here goes the answer that follow along after thinking for a while :

I guess sometime it’s okay even if you can’t see your own beautiful wings on your back.

As long as you know its there, as long as you realize that what makes you truly beautiful lies not only your back,

But most importantly, in you heart.

 Maybe we do see it, but sometime for some reason something along the way  come and block our view from seeing our beautiful wings.

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Sometime i wonder if the reason why we can’t see our wings all the time is because God wants us to see 

other people’s wings too.

To assure and remind them again that they too have beautiful wings.

That we are all beautiful. In our own way. (u just gotta figure out in what way)

And beauty is something to be shared. Not only the physical tangible beauty.

Because beauty take various forms such as the kindness of heart. Or a simple gesture by strangers. You name it.

Its only normal that we human have flaws. But its the flaws that define us. And it is also the flaw that make us want to be better. Isn’t it?

And the flaw of not seeing our own wings sometimes can turn out to be a good thing too.

Because if we can see our beautiful wings everyday, we get too fond of ourself, (after all we are only human)

Thus we become too proud to look at other but ourself. And that proud make you want to ‘fly’ alone.

Well what use is it no matter how beautiful your wings are if you are alone.

Perhaps, its a good thing that we don’t see our beautiful wing all the time. Right?

Because we are not the only beautiful creature that God has created. May God bless you with a beautiful heart everyday of your life, so that you can be a beautiful child of God.

Amen.

May you found your way to 'fly' to heaven,

aibeh

PROTECTING WHAT YOU LOVE

You know, it's only fair that if we love something,
we want to protect it.

And the ocean is one of the thousand things that i love.

These days i live far away from the ocean.
And when i miss the ocean,
when i miss the brisk salty breeze air,
or the feeling of sand between my toes,
i watch discovery channel. (or the Astro channel from 550 to 556)

Well, i know i can only see it through the television, but still it somehow make it bearable.

And today i am reminded that to protect what you love, you don't only protect the particular species.

You protect where it lives too. Its habitat, its sanctuary, its nursery.

So in conclusion, when you protect the ocean, you protect the species that lives within it too.

I don't know how much you love the ocean or for what reason you love the ocean,
but if you do love the ocean, let us at least do our own part to protect it.


And i'm crossing my finger that one day i'll be a part of the team to protect the ocean.
....and the other things that i love.

may you found the courage to protect what you love,
aibeh 8.39

Holding Hand

Did you know that sea otter hold hand while they are sleeping so that they don't float away from each other?

I went 'Aww..' watching the otter reaching for its partner's hand. 

Totally adorable!

So, yeah. What i'm trying to say today is:

Find someone that don't only reach for your hand, but also your heart.

This just made my day. C:

Damn sweet

May you have a sweet day. Cheers!

Random Thoughts

I'm having random thoughts again. Things i would love to do before i die.

1. Open a baby clothes store. This thought popped out when i was crocheting my nephew's beanie, and it turn out really cute! Doii..please la aibeh.. Ya, a girl can dream right? 


2. I'm gonna sneak into a swimming pool in the middle of the night and swim as long as i want. This is just crazy, but definitely one of the things that i always want to do.


3.  Conquer Mr Everest's heart. Actually, I mean to conquer Mount Kinabalu. Definitely!


Here's a thought. To make these dreams come true quicker perhaps i should marry off some rich sons of millionaire and ask him to make number 1 and 2 come true by buying a store and a swimming pool for me. 
Well i doubt that he can buy me number 3 though. 


According to my statistical analysis, the probability of marrying some rich guy that are :

- guy with good looking, nice and romantic character
- guy i'm in love with 
- and actually loves me back


 is like 99.9%.. 


IF you are the main actress in a korean movie. 


So the chances for it to happen in real life is 1%. 


Okay, i guess it's enough for now. Should accomplished one of these before i list out another random thoughts again.

Have a nice day, peeps. Be blessed! :)

i'm wearing my onceinablue beanie

12.29 pm

Dear you,

I'm sick of this. I'm sick of you avoiding and running away instead of Facing it.

Perhaps you join the Running Man show since you are so good at running away!

I just hope that you will figure it out before it's too late.

Tired and confused,
me 23.35 pm

Baby, please remember

'Don't you remember?
When will i see you again?'

Tuning to Adele's song early in the morning, you can't help but think of your past.
Listening to her lyric, you can really FEEL her emotions that she puts through her song.
She must really love that guy so much. Whoever he is.
Well, like you said Adele,
Sometime it last in love,
but sometime it hurt instead.

Well my friend, i say love ain't love until it hurts.
Ya they said time heals, but i guess God is the greatest healer.
My friend, when love hurt too much, offer your broken pieces of heart to God and let Him fix it.

P.s : Will i still remember you tomorrow? And the day after?

I am happy when i'm surrounded by water.

I miss it so much.
I wanted to go to a beach now, and shouted as loud as i can.

The feeling. That connection. That comfort. Of being one with the ocean.

Maybe i was too used to being near to ocean during my 3 years of taking my marine science course back then. Perhaps i did take it for granted..
And when i went to Semporna and Mabul for 2 months, that feeling came crawling back again...

Welcome to Semporna :D

The Dragon Inn. View from my office.

If i've ever make any right decision in my life, this has to be one of it.
I came to Semporna to be the daily paid assistant of Tuna Fisheries in WWF Semporna, where i basically assisted in collecting information regarding tuna from the community and fishermen in Mabul and Semporna..

At first, I was excited and thrilled. But the doubt came.

Myself : Semporna? That is like hundred miles away from my hometown. 
My dad : 'Its far and dangerous.'


I almost rejected it because my dad doesn't seem thrilled to hear the news.
I thought of the environment there.
I thought of Abu Sayyaf.
I thought of how am i going to adapt.
I thought of how in the world will i be going to church there.
I thought of so many things.
And i thought of the new things and new people that i will encounter, and most importantly the new experiences that i will gained there.

I understand my dad's feeling. Maybe if i were a boy, it'll be different.
on a second thought maybe i'll never understand feeling of a parent until i become one.


But deep down in my heart, i really want to go.
I know this is totally out of my comfort zone, but if i want it, i gotta chase it!
And somehow, i managed to get my dad's permission.
Thank God. Thanks dad. :)

Semporna is totally out of my comfort zone, everything here the community and the culture is different.
But i adapted to this place faster than i thought.

I'll never get tired of the view

And when i went to Mabul for the first time, i fell.

I fall in love with Mabul

I love the sandy beach. I love the blue-green clear water.

Enjoying the warm rays from the sunset

I love the magnificent sunset and the sunrise.

Sunset in Mabul

I'm always in awed by the night view where moon surrounded by 'halo' and full of shinning star sky.
The sound of the wave splashing on the shore is music to my ear.
I enjoy the feeling of wind softly blowing over every part of me.

I love the briskly salt air and the wind!

I love the smell of the ocean.

I love the feeling of sand between my toes.

I came back as a tourist. Fuh~

I'm envious of the simple livelihood of the community here.

From Left : detergent, vinegar, cooking oil, soy sauce, *i forgot* , milo.

I enjoy watching the kids running around playing their self-created-creative-games their mind can think of.

Kids playing happily in their own world 

And i absolutely love how the kids are never shy to greet me when they see me as i smile to them.

Lovely kids! <3

I love how time seems to pass slowly here.

And what i love most is to be with the ocean.
To swim, snorkel and dive here.

Being underwater, my soul feels calm.
I feel like i am in the other world now. Lost in the world of my own.
I feel like all my worries disappear into the ocean.

Dear God, is this heaven? If it's this beautiful on earth, what more it would be in heaven? 

I feel like i belong here. Not on land.
I feel like i can stay here forever. I really do.

It just feels right.
Ya, it makes me want to be a  fish.

imma happy happy in the water

But on a second thought, i'd rather be a mermaid that can change my leg back whenever i want to go back on land.

Is that too much too ask?
Ya i thought so.

Thinking back,i never thought i would have so much courage to be swimming at the open ocean without any floating device.
But now, i would be more than happy to jump in the middle of the ocean without my safety jacket and swim as long as i can.

Working with WWF in Semporna-Mabul, i gained more than i could possibly imagined.
Thank God for this chance and for all the warmest and nicest people i met here.

It's only fair that when you love something, you want to protect it.
Somehow, my passion toward the ocean might be not as big as anyone i know, but still i do have passion toward the ocean and the marine life in it. This i cannot deny.

So ya i'm working on how to protect what i love.
Which by being a part of any conservation team would really means a lot to me.
I was a part of WWF then, and now i just have to figure out what's next step.
Till then, wish me luck or better, keep me in your prayer.
In the meantime, i will continue to keep loving the ocean.

P.s :Somehow, those 3 years of my life in university really did taught me more than just swimming. Thank God for the Strength. Sometime Blessings can be very good in disguising. So have faith, my friend. GBU. :)